Promises

The psalms have many people suffering. They turn their suffering to God. They pray.

Man sometimes I feel so sad. I just melt into the couch. Feel like I cannot move.

Am I to turn this suffering to God? Or do I blame him for the suffering either because he allows it or because he inflicts it?

Neither is good and he is responsible for both.

So I turn to God in anger and distress and I don't feel like calling him good but I believe he is there and that he is King.

The cry is to God to save. And the hope is steadfast that he will.

I want my faith to be like that of the psalms. Real with the pain but confident in hope that God is listening, will hear the prayer and reach into my life to save me from it and/or bring me through it. I am done with hopelessness. I am done with skeltical reserved perspectives that hold me back from confident hope because I don't want to be disappointed. Shielding myself from pain. Dare to confidently hope.